Today we would like to share a blog-post we found on site we follow called Unravel Pediatric Cancer. This organisation is run by “onco parents” and we know that our own “onco parents” will relate to this post in particular.
The post highlights the emotional rollercoaster that is Childhood Cancer; the emotions felt by siblings of children with cancer, as well as the emotions of the parent(s).
You ever been in the water.. and you start to get tired and your stroke gets slower and you sink a little deeper .. or like when you are in the current and you stop fighting it and let it pull you …
That’s what grief is like I think..
Sometimes its too strong and you simply are unable to resist its pull on you.. Especially in the beginning.. because really you are only just learning to swim. But then you learn.. you have to right? So then you feel it happening and you kick against it.. Just a few strong kicks will bring you back to the surface and you can gulp in air.
It happened to me today.
pull. kick. kick. breathe
.. but first I’ll rewind..
Two days ago I took my 4 younger kids with me to go see their sister. .. the living .. growing.. visible part of her. They.. especially our middle two have been asking questions over the last few months.. Hard questions.. The same ones over and over again. ..
mama why did she get cancer? but mama did it hurt her?
Actually the hardest ones aren’t the questions but the statements.
mama when I turn 6 and get my brain tumor. Mama when I die young..
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